Sunday, August 29, 2010

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The river inside me. The story of Tony


Within us we have a river that flows

without our knowledge,

this river is sometimes violent, sometimes calm

and it is difficult to know who inadvertently.


The river carries many elements,

is the memories of my childhood dreams

is when I'm old,

brings my past and future lives.


I'm like a fisherman who tries

valuable as the river port,

text
patient sitting on its banks

and silent to hear his voice.


VM D'Ascanio. "Steps", 2004.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

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By now the technology at the service of profit has replaced the simple manual work, in our time the contradictory Luddites finally regaining all his reasons.

Wednesday, August 25, 2010

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Cappai.




As we begin to talk of unlikely subjects, we found ourselves before the prison Buoncammino turned the place for a long time in my warm home. The prison is situated on one of the hills overlooking the city, where you can enjoy an excellent view. On the left is the ancient Roman amphitheater, imperturbable reminder of a time now lost. Extends before most of my beautiful city, the port to get up to the Laguna of Santa Gilla, in which from time to time is given to the headlines the body of some "last" definitely fallen from grace. In the distance you can see the mighty mountain range of the Seven Brothers whose contours, particularly clear in the mornings, taking spectral appearance, a faded colors, a frame of Monet. On top, the hill surrounded by trees and historic buildings, dominated by the emblematic structure "jail", which shows the appearance of a lovely nineteenth-century palace, with its round shapes and aggrazziate. Few elements cause the displeasure of his "guests" of small cells, lack of air, promiscuity, and violence of various kinds Abut. In this prison there is a high suicide rate, are full of petty thieves, the neighborhood, people with AIDS, HIV, drug users, immigrants from every nation and color, mentally ill, viral and skin. In short, this little place we last of the earth we have chosen an ideal vacation spot forced! At the time
University not know these situations, but during that clear morning in October I had the opportunity to hear a special dialogue, which lit a lamp in the darkness of my mind darkened. I heard a voice that came from the big rock on the right of prison ... A woman, who barely kept the stragonfie shopping bags, it seemed the muse of the bards of the more unfortunate.
"Antò , Antò" He screamed with the same enthusiasm as a jew who saw the promised land.
"Anto, Antoniccu are Mom, let me see my son ... "
" Lord, what is it, mom knows Cappai de Tony?
" EIA, which I call him Anthony, please ..."
" Yes sir, we had already call him ..."
held the silence for a few minutes while I waited for Valerie and Maurice that the boy decided to be alive. Those events were surprising to us, we felt like children in front of a sarabande of cakes and sweets.

"Oh, but to me it's me"
She moved for the first time, like a statue that comes to life at the wax museum.
"Son, my beautiful ... How are you? "
" Eh, but tottu goods, and the back of my father still straight? "
" Yes, he is already past, so I salute him, and Zia Assunta Rosa. Play some 'beautiful. .. "
" What happened? "
" No, and Anto, who has not already happened. But I must say that my father has to sell the land of Uncle Amerigo, and had always wanted to ask you the same opinion ... "
" Of course they are, you already know that I never change your mind, I. Tell him to sell it to my father, and forget about it, and Uncle Amerigo comprategli a beautiful plaque with a picture just a little more beautiful, that in what did you put paride unu maccu limpiu , your aunt ... "
" or Antò Okay, put on your sweater, look at the review tomorrow, hello beautiful mother. "
" Hello or mA, and a saludamì tottusu ... "

We obviously did not miss a single sentence of that original box. Then I could not imagine that one day soon, I personally met the elusive Tony. Detained meet the great scoundrels of every kind of deviance upset, sometimes without morality, lost in the thousand vicissitudes of daily living, or openly in the same prison. Tony, however, was not a villain, and was succeeded to maintain a degree of personal dignity, in places like this arduous undertaking, in which shame and brutality in s'accavallano
hectic ... I remember like it was yesterday (it was yesterday?) the day when I met him. During a quiet spring afternoon, when the wind was carrying pleasing fragrances daughters of the sea, a turkish thirst for vengeance had tried to stab me during a game of "moon mounts". Tony had immediately locked, and kicked him so powerful and breathtaking.
"I Won, I won, I'll asshole!" Panted the mustachioed opening their arms to simulate a huge circle.
"Go back to the Bosphorus, the turkish hell! "Answers him while they were taking him away, protected from the broad shoulders of my rescuer.
"Oh, boy, get it easy, otherwise you my ass I do ..." I said Tony, who kept a pack of cigarettes in his hand as if he had a bomb mototov ready to be hurled towards the wall.

said this short but vital phrase, Tony showed me his toothless smile from Venezuelan killer, meanwhile holding out his great hand. It was a "Maurri" feet tall and ninety pounds of muscle per cent wisely distributed on an outstanding physicist. Before being imprisoned his job was a mechanic, a legend in his field, he knew procure any piece of any car sacrosanct. It was like one of those Cuban mechanics who know how to fix those American cars that you can only see on Happy Days, led by Fonzie, Wells, or perhaps cursed by Jhonny slices ... On his imprisonment versions circulated contradictory and improbable, but one day he discovered that it was was arrested for a trivial "assault a police officer."
"I wanted to seize the car that bastard, but he is gone, eeeh! If he is gone ... "I said quietly one afternoon, as if I was saying that he had gone to buy a ribinetto to the sink in his house.
"Mom my, "I said," sometimes exaggerate their own. Once kidnapped me from Marbella because he did not review. Damn, my father did not kill me for a while ... You what car did you have? "
" A Porsche! "
" How is it that they wanted to seize? "
" I've been taking apart ... But it was not mine, oh, not be stupid! "
" Wow ... "I commented, trying to hide my dismay.


Tony was a heroin addict the last generation, fluid flowed through his veins and dangerous unknown, absolute mixtures, drugs that only selected professionals were able to prepare. His criminal record was long as the road to salvation, but still behaved like a gentleman, said "thank you", "please," always defended the weak, not only from ordinary bullying other prisoners, but also the brutality most treacherous of warders. In short, it was a sort of Fidel Castro's prison, but did not distinguish class and was unaware of any variant of Marxism-stamped so the poor as the rich, the powerful as the last of the earth. However the powerful beat with a smile, and this was enough to make the most sympathetic. All have value, but Tony confided in her, despite being a big man in the sense primary term, it was still a man ... One morning
m'apprestavo to clean the floor of our cell. The night before David had been busy, had eaten like a maniac and threw up all over with anger, throwing up his arms towards the full moon could be glimpsed through the grating of the cell. Have been three in the morning, at most four. Some servants and dragged him to the infirmary, so if you could call it, because he had also vomited blood. Some sketches I had sealed on the face, and scratched the toilet bowl while I wondered if the beloved cellmate was HIV positive or not. M'aveva recounted several episodes with the Nigerian Viale Elmas, and in addition was perfect harmony with Ratzinger on the issue of condoms. Granted, the clues were not reassuring, but I decided not to think about. The problems of every day was enough, I could not give a straight hypochondria ... In the meantime, some stubbornly resist fouling, but inappropriate as Sandro Bondi, the jailer on duty began to bang his club on the bars of the cell.

SDENG! SDENG! SDENG!

"Dickhead, Tony Capper was your friend, is not it?" He asked with his Sicilian accent.
"Yes, of course, what you want from him?"
"What do I want? Your friend is setting the account with the Big Boss, eh eh.
I looked at him as if I were watching an alien in learning vacation on earth.
"Hell does not give the reduction of sentence, the lawyers do not come here, you bastard!"
"What happened ... When?" I asked as I raised icredulo.
"Tonight, a beautiful overdose ... He laid out a horse fuck ... Serves them right! "
" Damn, "I said," go to get an enema! You need it, you see as you walk by ... "
" We, we, you look at how you talk, henchman ... There is more to defend your friend, remember all the time you'll be in here ... "
said that the subtle went to attend to some other gory affair.
I threw the broom in the toilet, I sat on the bed stained with blood and I ran my hand over his face. My mind went to that distant memory, when his mother called him and he responded by gratings, buried walls. Tony, damn you! Yet he was an expert of heroin, as he was able to happen ... A series of disturbing images passed through the antechamber of my consciousness. I thought of the warders, the Turks, at that damn Bonorva baker who wanted to tear him to pieces, a Sunni who had sworn that, in the name of Muhammad himself, to kill him. No, I do not know, only he possessed the key, and receiving carried as in Paradise of fools. I thought so at the prison, the lessons of criminal law, institution of punishment, the principle of rehabilitation, retribuzioniste theories, utilitarian, to the Constitution ... Then I thought the last of the land locked up in prisons, immigrants, transsexuals, prostitutes, the thieves of the neighborhood, and then to all those who decide to commit suicide, those who die of AIDS, those who are stabbed, strangled, raped, those who no one ever goes to find, those who await the passing of the days with calm resignation ... Then I thought, and thought, and thought again, and then, and then ... And then came David.
"What are you doing in the midst of this mess?" I asked with an expression of a ghost.
"Tony Capper died of an overdose last night."
"Ah, poor fellow! It was a good person ... Come on, give me a hand. "
David, with the shirts still stained with blood, grabbed the white sheet that had just placed on the cot. He asked me to help him to get closer to the grating, then tied a knot in the sheet to slide outside of the cell. He dragged the cot near the wall, then we went over almost panting. The other prisoners had the same idea of \u200b\u200bDavid, this was in fact a deeply rooted tradition, compassion is carefully monitored desperate among us. Dozens and dozens of white sheets waving in the sun for a light west wind, hailed the early release of our final and Tony Cappai.


Vincent D'Ascanio, unpublished, 2009.

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

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Manuelona transsexuals


Since I arrived I had not observed due attention to the place where I was. It was a modest local SG Street, where the prevailing roofed houses and rickety with obvious signs of mold on the walls. It was a neighborhood characterized by an unhealthy fascination, but the left: the houses were stacked next to each other and thresholds gave vertically on a narrow one-way street, where passing vehicles of all kinds and some "last" that, for every single step seemed to go in haste to a decisive appointment with death. The district
SG ruled the graffiti Cagliari, which moved overnight to dry dethrone dominant on the gray concrete structures. Distorted faces, prisoners smiling, eyes fitted with special antennas, declarations of love and social charges, deceptive whales were demanding justice: This scenario was intended to anyone naked path those streets with a bit of curiosity. Among the houses were opened, the sudden invisible passages, which flowed into squares to navigate s'esercitavano heroin addicts in the ritual of self systematically. With the arrival of night clubs come alive ambiguous, in which floated colorful characters whose gender is indefinite, but that of speaking and acting revealed a deep sensitivity, unearthly, not found in accelerating the world of light ...


At that time it was popular / an / a transsexual, known / y in the name of all Manuelona. During the whole of this week / a was a do employee of the Province of Cagliari, and held the use of protocols with the same enthusiasm as a Fabrizio Corona at a conference on the rule of law. Goggles falling on his nose, short hair, blue eyes, classic sweater gently resting on the mighty shoulders, was the stunt double for a Raul Bova apathetic slightly disheveled. Alienated, expecting a wait that stretched through the night to turn into a fever, and when it came, undressed of his clerical clothes to wear a provocative miniskirt, fishnet stockings for sexy, and a body within that exalted place in an specialized clinic in Brazil (to hide the curves during the hours of the protocol, he spoke of clever tricks ...)
Manuelona dancing like a possessed until two in the morning, then grabbed her purse as her pink lipstick cherry, rose to super SUV 3000, then lingered under the bridge Scaffa.
You could also meet under the overpass of 130.
was recognizable in the deep canyon of Columbus Avenue. You could discover
to lure some young students at the Cooperative Credit. You could surprise some entertainment
ancient Councillor of the Regional Council. His SUV
3000, noted in hot July night, resembled a gigantic penis metallic.

Manuelona ... How long ... I remember with a wealth of detail on the evening when I met her. I was lying lifeless on one of the sofas in the local M. For a change Valeria m'aveva humiliated, and Augustine had ruled that drunk at all costs. I was looking for some way to throw up, while my roommate harassed some waiter who laughed at him and his face horribly scarred. While trying to extricate himself from the situation quell'imbarazzante Manuelona I sat down beside him. Then I turned, and before me appeared two mammoth tits MADE IN BRAZIL. At first I was startled, because Manuelona decided to cuddle.
"Hello beautiful" he whispered with a masculine voice, "what you want to do?"
Co - what? "I said stammering," I feel like throwing up ... I must ... "
" How sick? "
completion of this strange dialogue Manuelona m'osservò better and began to laugh, then called her friend (or friend?) To tell her what happened. The two laughed together as if they were an annual commemoration of alcoholics, cocaine addicts. Sexual past that wave of enthusiasm, crossed his long legs and offered me a cigarette.
"My God, you're a kid ... how old are you?"
"Man, I'm not a child, I almost nineteen years!"
I apologized with the kindness that characterized it at every opportunity. He said he had the face of a boy of fifteen, and in fact was not wrong. Today beard and some scars remedied in prison have mitigated the effect, but in that period proved less years than I had in reality. After this misunderstanding Manuelona stood by me, for that night did not intend to get busy. Augustine tried to corrupt it in various ways and finally found an agreement for the next day at favorable rates, near the lagoon of S. Gilla. All spirited Augustine suggested to go to the bar to celebrate the "conquest", then I girded Manuelona life shaking his hips big parenthood. It was there, before the eyes of my insane roommate, who he described his life. He talked of the work to be registered, who despised with all my heart. He told me what had been difficult to accept that body rebels, and especially to what he told me it was difficult to accept others. His family had ruled, had three sisters who did not speak to him, his mother nearly died of grief, her father reminded her that a bullet shotgun was given to his brain.
"unpleasant situations at all, dear, but I could not imprison and deny myself to satisfy the desires of others ..." He proposed
this phrase with infinite pride, and he had good reason, damn him / her. However, the most interesting part of the speech came when he spoke of his clients. All decent people, for charity, lawyers, dentists, politicians, priests, Catholics and Pentecostals, Buddhists, vigilantes, unemployed persons and clowns of the circus.
"As a priest?" I asked bewildered, "is a life that will split the balls!"
"Oh yes, even priests ... Poor things, they too are men, as everyone has their needs. Then, of course, when they go on repeating the Parish Vatican diktat. They must do so by force, they tell me crying ... One of them has a strange habit, before each report begs me to confess and therefore absolve him of, otherwise the halyard is ... Amazing, is not it? "
Yes, it was incredible, but thanks to Valeria nothing could surprise me. I decided to give him a few questions about the politicians, maybe they had met someone famous ...
"Oh, yes," she said with dreamy eyes, "a regular customer was the Mayor of a big city of Sardinia. He told me that if I was his only m'avrebbe appointed assessor for productive activities, but had to be adjacent to our offices ... "
" And you have accepted? "
" Of course not, my body is for sale, but not To my mind ... Pluvio Thunderer "
" But, sorry, what part was this mayor? "
" One of those new, big ... Think big, was one of principal leaders ... I have always been a fascist, I could not humiliate me like this ... "
" How fascist? "exclaimed grabbing her by the arm," but if during the fascist people like you were persecuted, how can you be a fascist? "
" Guilt My grandfather, who was also great Fascist fetishist ... As a child m'ossessionò with stories about the great leader and twenty years. That dictator was just a big man, had lots of lovers, would be my ideal man ... "
" Your grandfather Fascist ... ... ... What a beautiful thing, "said Augustine in a state of trance.
"Yeah, it was the only one to Starmie after my next choice. My political belief is a strange emotional connection with my heart ... And then, is the inconsistency of our time ... The workers voted to right, the Northern League takes votes in Sardinia ... I mean, I do not feel out of place! "
"That's true," I said scratching his head.
"My God," said Augustine, "we are before a protocol transsexual who carries out the priests, reject the departments, should follow her tits and is fascist! You are the woman of my life, but what are your arguments? "
" Tomorrow you will know them one by one ... "
" I love you ... " Augustine concluded and quaff a strawberry vodka accompanied by a curious mix of antidepressants.
During one of endless afternoons in prison David handed me the Unione Sarda, adding a terse "I'm sorry." Initially I did not understand, then I saw his picture and recognized her. After all, was one of the few people who came to see me regularly, and sometimes brought me sweets which she did. Damn had stabbed to the heart, the organ that had dominated his whole life. Fourteen stab wounds and the barbed wire tied around the neck were not identified those responsible, and no one pulled my hair to do it.
Yes, Manuel, or Manuelona, \u200b\u200bran a double, triple, quadruple life, a life that had warmed in the sunlight, in which all respected him for his professionalism, and another in which a costume or mask, make-up ... Or maybe a costume or mask, trick when he was the light, and registered all those silly administrative documents. He devised the best way to conceal her breasts in Brazil, but could not hide for life, or at least until he was alive. The death had revealed the existence of another, the one worn during the night, when darkness protected her from the vulgarity and hypocrisy of this, that everybody indiscriminately hate ... When the time seems pass, when Valeria does not respond and no one wants to meet me, I climb on my vespa vagabond and sleepwalking through the city. E 'in those afternoons that go under the bridge "Scaffa" and spare a thought for Manuel, the eternal Manuelona, \u200b\u200bthe most consistent person I ever met.